{"id":272,"date":"2020-03-25T18:28:54","date_gmt":"2020-03-25T18:28:54","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mucahede.com\/2020\/03\/25\/canim-anneme-onu-hala-ozluyorum\/"},"modified":"2020-03-25T20:30:30","modified_gmt":"2020-03-25T20:30:30","slug":"canim-anneme-onu-hala-ozluyorum","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mucahede.com\/siirler\/canim-anneme-onu-hala-ozluyorum\/","title":{"rendered":"Can\u0131m Anneme! (Onu h\u00e2l\u00e2 \u00f6zl\u00fcyorum)"},"content":{"rendered":"

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K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ya\u015fta \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131 evlendirenlere!<\/em><\/p>\n

Bu \u015fiirim, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131 daha k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck<\/p>\n

ya\u015flarda, onlar\u0131n m\u00fcr\u00fcvvetlerini g\u00f6rme<\/p>\n

ad\u0131na evlendirip onlara zulmeden<\/p>\n

duygusuz, ta\u015f y\u00fcrekli anne babalara<\/p>\n

ve Rasulullah (as)\u2019a iftira atarak 6 ya da 9<\/p>\n

ya\u015f\u0131nda Hz. Ai\u015fe ile evlendi\u011fi yalan\u0131n\u0131 atan<\/p>\n

iftirac\u0131, yalanc\u0131 \u0130sl\u00e2mc\u0131lara ithaft\u0131r!<\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

On\u00fc\u00e7 ond\u00f6rt ya\u015f\u0131nda hayat\u0131 tan\u0131madan,<\/em><\/p>\n

Abisinin yan\u0131nda ku\u015fluk vakti uykudan,<\/em><\/p>\n

Babam\u0131n terkisinde ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131 tarladan,<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00c7ocuk ya\u015fta ayr\u0131ld\u0131 anneden ve babadan.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Daha k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck ya\u015fta \u00e7ocuk bilmez a\u015fk nedir,<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

Oyun \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda olan sevgiden bihaberdir,<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

O ne annelik bilir, ne de babal\u0131k bilir,<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

Bunlar\u0131 evlendiren \u00e7ocu\u011fun katilidir.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

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Ac\u0131larla \u00f6r\u00fcld\u00fc onun hayat kafesi,<\/em><\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn olsun sevin\u00e7le yank\u0131lanmad\u0131 sesi,<\/em><\/p>\n

Sevmek nedir bilmezdi, daha masum birisi,<\/em><\/p>\n

Hep ac\u0131larla ge\u00e7ti, onun hayat \u00e7izgisi<\/em><\/p>\n

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Evlenmek ister misin, diye soran olmad\u0131,<\/em><\/p>\n

Ne babas\u0131 annesi ona kimse sormad\u0131,<\/em><\/p>\n

Onun duygular\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 kimse anlamad\u0131,<\/em><\/p>\n

Ona zulmedilmi\u015fti, ancak kimse t\u0131nmad\u0131.<\/em><\/p>\n

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\u00c7ocuk\u00e7a duygularla oynamadan g\u00fclmeden,<\/em><\/p>\n

Daha olgun ya\u015f\u0131na ula\u015f\u0131p da gelmeden,<\/em><\/p>\n

E\u015f olmu\u015ftu babama kendisi istemeden,<\/em><\/p>\n

Hen\u00fcz onbe\u015f ya\u015f\u0131nda anne oldu bilmeden.<\/em><\/p>\n

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O gencecik hayat\u0131, ge\u00e7ti hep ac\u0131larla,<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00c7ilelerle yo\u011fruldu \u00e7ok ac\u0131 duygularla,<\/em><\/p>\n

Hayat\u0131 \u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc \u00e7elik halat a\u011flarla<\/em><\/p>\n

Hayat\u0131n\u0131n bahar\u0131 kaplanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 karlarla<\/em><\/p>\n

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Bahar\u0131 ya\u015famadan, kara k\u0131\u015f\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131,<\/em><\/p>\n

Kimi zaman a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a bazen gizli a\u011flad\u0131,<\/em><\/p>\n

\u0130nsanlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda karalar\u0131 ba\u011flad\u0131,<\/em><\/p>\n

Yaln\u0131z kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 anlar, seller gibi \u00e7a\u011flad\u0131.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Kimse dinlemiyordu, onun ne dedi\u011fini,<\/em><\/p>\n

Ac\u0131lar kaplam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, tertemiz y\u00fcre\u011fini,<\/em><\/p>\n

Zaten hi\u00e7 giymemi\u015fti g\u00fczel gelinli\u011fini,<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00c7aresizlik r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131 sarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 benli\u011fini,<\/em><\/p>\n

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Ne onu duyan oldu, ne de onu anlayan,<\/em><\/p>\n

Ne ona ac\u0131yan var ne y\u00fcre\u011fi s\u0131zlayan,<\/em><\/p>\n

Hayal etti\u011fi d\u00fcnya olmu\u015ftu kara zindan,<\/em><\/p>\n

Ona yap\u0131lanlara bir g\u00fcn etmedi isyan,<\/em><\/p>\n

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Bir defa ters d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc kaderinin tekeri,<\/em><\/p>\n

Gen\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131nda verdiler, zehir dolu \u015fekeri,<\/em><\/p>\n

Yeni hayat\u0131 buydu art\u0131k d\u00f6nmezdi geri,<\/em><\/p>\n

O soylu y\u00fcce kad\u0131n, g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn m\u00fccevheri,<\/em><\/p>\n

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Bir \u015feye kar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kmaz, sesini \u00e7\u0131karmazd\u0131,<\/em><\/p>\n

Zaten sesi \u00e7\u0131ksayd\u0131 zorla ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131lmazd\u0131,<\/em><\/p>\n

Kendi karar verirdi o durumda olmazd\u0131,<\/em><\/p>\n

\u0130stemedi\u011fi halde orada bulunmazd\u0131.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Babam\u0131n hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131 onu daha \u00e7ok \u00fczd\u00fc,<\/em><\/p>\n

Gen\u00e7li\u011fin bahar\u0131nda mevsimler ona g\u00fczd\u00fc,<\/em><\/p>\n

Ne bahar\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131 ne s\u0131cak yaz\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc,<\/em><\/p>\n

Ne babas\u0131 evinde ne de sonradan g\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Yedi sene boyunca, fel\u00e7li babama bakt\u0131, <\/em><\/p>\n

\u00dcz\u00fcnt\u00fc g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131n\u0131, hep i\u00e7ine ak\u0131tt\u0131,<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00c7ok \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc, kahroldu, kimseye dert yanmad\u0131,<\/em><\/p>\n

D\u00f6rt \u00e7ocukla ba\u015fba\u015fa bir tek ba\u015f\u0131na kald\u0131.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Bir\u00e7ok s\u00f6zleri duydu, \u00e7ok azarlar i\u015fitti,<\/em><\/p>\n

O ne \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131 ne de evi terk etti,<\/em><\/p>\n

Ac\u0131 ve s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar, her g\u00fcn can\u0131na yetti,<\/em><\/p>\n

Hi\u00e7 \u015fik\u00e2yet etmedi yine de hep sabretti.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Dokuzy\u00fcz ellidokuz, babam\u0131z\u0131 kaybettik,<\/em><\/p>\n

D\u00f6rtle ond\u00f6rt aras\u0131 d\u00f6rt erkek karde\u015f idik,<\/em><\/p>\n

Hepimiz de k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckt\u00fck biz ne yapabilirdik,<\/em><\/p>\n

Yaln\u0131z kalan annemin yan\u0131nda kenetlendik.<\/em><\/p>\n

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A\u015firet mant\u0131\u011f\u0131yla d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131m\u0131z pek \u00e7oktu,<\/em><\/p>\n

Bizi ya\u015fatamazlar diye annem \u00e7ok korktu,<\/em><\/p>\n

Annem \u00e7ok talihsizdi y\u00fcre\u011fi \u00e7ok buruktu,<\/em><\/p>\n

Bize sahip \u00e7\u0131kacak bir yak\u0131n\u0131m\u0131z yoktu.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Babam olduk\u00e7a g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc, bile\u011fi b\u00fck\u00fclmezmi\u015f,<\/em><\/p>\n

Cesur yi\u011fit biriymi\u015f, s\u0131rt\u0131 yere gelmezmi\u015f, <\/em><\/p>\n

Bu nedenle d\u00fc\u015fmanlar, babam\u0131 hi\u00e7 sevmezmi\u015f,<\/em><\/p>\n

Kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda durup da, ona laf demezlermi\u015f,<\/em><\/p>\n

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Babam \u00f6l\u00fcnce onlar, bize kin beslediler,<\/em><\/p>\n

K\u00f6yden d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131ksak pe\u015fimizden geldiler,<\/em><\/p>\n

Sevgi besleyen yoktu, bize ac\u0131 verdiler,<\/em><\/p>\n

Kimi zaman abimi, bazen beni d\u00f6vd\u00fcler,<\/em><\/p>\n

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Cahili bir toplumda, dul kad\u0131na yer yoktur,<\/em><\/p>\n

Kimse yard\u0131mc\u0131 olmaz iftira atan \u00e7oktur,<\/em><\/p>\n

En yak\u0131nlar\u0131 bile ona darbeler vurur,<\/em><\/p>\n

Hep yan g\u00f6zle bak\u0131l\u0131r, ona tuzak kurulur,<\/em><\/p>\n

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Talihsizlik yakana bir kere yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fsa,<\/em><\/p>\n

D\u00f6rt tane yetim ile bir ba\u015f\u0131na kalm\u0131\u015fsa,<\/em><\/p>\n

Koca bir k\u00f6y i\u00e7inde elinde tutan yoksa<\/em><\/p>\n

Evlenmektir tek \u00e7are iyi biri bulunsa,<\/em><\/p>\n

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Hep hat\u0131rlar\u0131m onu, mahzun duru\u015fu vard\u0131,<\/em><\/p>\n

Ne yaparsak yapal\u0131m hi\u00e7bir zaman k\u0131zmazd\u0131,<\/em><\/p>\n

Hatam\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6rse de \u00fczerinde durmazd\u0131,<\/em><\/p>\n

Fazla zengin de\u011fildik ancak o ald\u0131rmazd\u0131,<\/em><\/p>\n

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Mahsuniyet nuruydu o y\u00fcz\u00fcnde parlayan. <\/em><\/p>\n

Hep kendi halindeydi, yoktu onu anlayan,<\/em><\/p>\n

Ne \u015fik\u00e2yet ederdi, ne de ederdi isyan,<\/em><\/p>\n

Onun o halidir ki, y\u00fcre\u011fimi da\u011flayan.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Ond\u00f6rt ya\u015f\u0131nda abim hen\u00fcz k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocuktu,<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00dczerindeki y\u00fckler, haddinden fazla \u00e7oktu,<\/em><\/p>\n

Tek ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za kald\u0131k, yak\u0131n amcam\u0131z yoktu,<\/em><\/p>\n

Bu durum annemizi s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lara soktu.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Evlatlar\u0131m kalmas\u0131n ortal\u0131k yerde diye,<\/em><\/p>\n

Fitne fesat yaymas\u0131n fitneciler bu k\u00f6ye,<\/em><\/p>\n

Evlendi, yi\u011fitlikte nam salm\u0131\u015f bir deliye,<\/em><\/p>\n

\u015eans\u0131 yaver gitmedi, h\u00fcz\u00fcn kald\u0131 geriye.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Bindokuzy\u00fcz doksan d\u00f6rt s\u0131cak Temmuz ay\u0131nda,<\/em><\/p>\n

Namaz i\u00e7in kalkm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, sabah\u0131n \u015fafa\u011f\u0131nda,<\/em><\/p>\n

Tekbir al\u0131p durmu\u015ftu namaz\u0131nda k\u0131yamda,<\/em><\/p>\n

Son secdesi olmu\u015ftu art\u0131k onun d\u00fcnyada.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Secde halinde gitti biricik anneci\u011fim,<\/em><\/p>\n

Ben bunlar\u0131 yazarken h\u00e2l\u00e2 yanar y\u00fcre\u011fim,<\/em><\/p>\n

And\u0131k\u00e7a o g\u00fcnleri, ya\u015f bo\u015falt\u0131r g\u00f6zlerim,<\/em><\/p>\n

Onur abidesiydi, onu h\u00e2l\u00e2 \u00f6zlerim.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Rahmet ve ma\u011ffireti geni\u015f olan ey Rabb\u2019im,<\/em><\/p>\n

Annemi babam\u0131 da affetmeni dilerim,<\/em><\/p>\n

D\u00fcnyada \u00e7ok \u00e7ektiler, Sen Rahmans\u0131n ve Rahim,<\/em><\/p>\n

Onlar\u0131 cennetinle m\u00fck\u00e2fatland\u0131r ey \u00c2lim,<\/em><\/p>\n

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Ramazan Y\u0131lmaz<\/em><\/p>\n

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Ramazan Y\u0131lmaz: 2016.11.23
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